Meanwhile the clouds are white and the sky is all blue. Why so much God. Why not a little for men.
I have grown weary of literature: silence alone comforts me. If I continue to write, itβs because I have nothing more to accomplish in this world except to wait for death. Searching for the word in darkness. Any little success invades me and puts me in full view of everyone. I long to wallow in the mud. I can scarcely control my need for self-abasement, my craving for licentiousness and debauchery. Sin tempts me, forbidden pleasures lure me. I want to be both pig and hen, then kill them and drink their blood.