Instead of visualizing the price of failure try visualizing the rewards of success. You'll make it.
Till the time the chains of organized religion remain intact, the slavery of mind & soul will reign supreme.
Determination may require you to burn all your boats at times, but always be prepared to build bridges, for success.
It is the infinite stupidity of humankind that has helped propagate, enforce and successfully perpetuate the human-construct called religion to oppress & subjugate their own kind. No other experiment in mind-control has ever rivaled it...as yet.