I thought there was maybe going to be some booing. I didn't know how the fans would take to me. But the reception from the England fans has been top class. They have taken me in.
My nan and granddad are from Cork.
Mark O'Toole from the FAI has looked after me well back in England to the point that I consider him a father figure.
Everyone knows Chadwell Heath; it's historic.
As I'm growing up, going into holding midfield, I'm watching Busquets quite a lot for Barcelona. The way he controls the game, his reading of it, technically, defensively - everything about him cuts him out above the rest. I'm really enjoying watching him.
As a holding midfield player, you want movement and to play between the lines.
The likes of Harry Kane, Raheem Sterling - they give you all the confidence you need. They give you little pats on the back, tell you you're doing well.
When Chelsea let me go, it was really deflating. For me, as a youngster, it's all I ever knew - living 10 minutes from the training ground, going to loads of the games.
I was released by Chelsea at 14 years old. I remember it, a Tuesday night. On the Wednesday, I was training with Fulham, five minutes from my house, and then on the Thursday, I was training with West Ham. After one session at both clubs, they both wanted me.
England have never wanted me at underage level; it's always been Ireland.
It's crazy to be spoken about like Mascherano. He's won everything: Champions League, La Ligas; he's been at World Cups.
