How can you even know what you want, if you don't know who you are? Invest the time and energy into getting to know yourself. Get real with yourself.
Peace, happiness, and love are a daily practice. Give time and energy to that which you want more of in your life. Invest in yourself for a higher quality of life. You're worth it.
Stop blaming other people for your own behavior! Own the truth. If you don't like it, then invest the time and energy to change it.
Put a little soul in everything you say, in everything you do.
When seeking forgiveness, remember, that forgiveness includes change. Don't just ask for forgiveness because you are sorry. Ask because you are willing to put the time and effort in to change.
The more you do something the easier it gets. Don't expect it to get easier, if you're not putting in the time and energy to make that happen.