If you're reading this, I hope God opens incredible doors for your life this year. Greatness is upon you. You must believe it though.
No amount of me trying to explain myself was doing any good. I didn't even know what was going on inside of me, so how could I have explained it to them?
Today I wore a pair of faded old jeans and a plain grey baggy shirt. I hadn't even taken a shower, and I did not put on an ounce of makeup. I grabbed a worn out black oversized jacket to cover myself with even though it is warm outside. I have made conscious decisions lately to look like less of what I felt a male would want to see. I want to disappear.
Never give up hope. All things are working for your good. One day, you'll look back on everything you've been through and thank God for it.